I had a weird DMT experience the other day. I had one small hit and the visual hallucinations were only half there, not in total vibrancy.

So I felt just about every sensation all at once - it was quite intense and there was also a fair bit of anxiety. It was a bit like a filter had been taken off me.

With all my previous experience with meditation and psychedelics, I tried the usual notion of letting go but this time i added in the thought "experience every sensation as a learning opportunity". After I eased into this notion, out of nowhere a seemingly benevolent worm appeared and started munching through the geometric patterns I was seeing and turning them into glistening diamonds. It felt like i was at a buffet and even if it was a bit scary I didn't mind because i was basically collecting coins in mario - i was leveling up and that is what made me comfortable enough to gravitate towards the desire to embrace everything and try to understand it. If the end game of DMT is your consciousness temporarily leaving your body, then it must be the best tool available to me for just about everything. I haven't broken through to "hyperspace" yet though.

To be honest I think any anxieties i had in the past were from not understanding my environment or the world enough, coupled with a weed habit that consisted of no breaks ever (wake and bake). But I don't want to just stuff any fear of the unknown down and plaster it up with obstructions. That just prolongs the inevitable.

When you are not familiar with something it actually produces stress and fear hormones. When you are familiar it releases love hormones. (see familiarity principle). This means we can get most if not all of our comfort from understanding reality and rely less on external things. Oh i know it can be daunting at first, it's like catching up on patch notes in WoW. Also, in a recent study that I heard on Jesse Lawlers 'SmartDrugSmarts' podcast, a single dose of cortisol (which triggers stress) disrupted memory and learning in the brains and had a substantial effect on the plasticity of the sensory areas of the brain. They suspect that the increase in cortisol suppresses the longterm potentiation of the neurons that are affected. So understanding these things and having an openness to being wrong or incomplete seems to be incredibly important for overcoming resistance.

I read an article about climate change which gave me a well rounded view of a big problem. Some people say it's grim, but It made me actually feel more empowered as my richer understanding about it means that nay-sayers can't as easily displace the route i wish to take. The comment about the film "Mad Max" perhaps being a displacement for our climate anxieties especially resonated with me.

I also saw a video. It was of a man talking about many people having an "inner trump" and that we need to dismantle our ego to some extent to bring about lasting positive change, because out of ego we want to be top dog, which maybe stimulates our drive to acquire superficial stuff, instead of leaning more towards an inclusive consciousness and helping with the worlds #1 problem of cow farts changing the climate.

Direct experience is the most powerful tool in the world

Visiting new places

Getting a change of scenery

Can enhance your mind more than anything

But not everyone can afford this

Which is why I believe psychedelics are the best tools in shifting perspective

In a very positive way

Especially when it comes to microdosing

However

It's also important to have reliable sources of knowledge

to help integrate these mystical experiences

Remember that everything

Such as music

is an expression of consciousness

So no need to demonize anything

Simply seek to understand

Because doing so is liberating

Especially when you realize

that everything is connected

Many notions we learned as a kid were not entirely true

Which is why we must question things that do not add up

Question things that make us tic

And truly make sense of it

By passing obstacles and elevating thought patterns

with this new view and knowledge

we can transcend our differences

and graduate from drone status

to unlock our full potential

Tutorial from http://thethirdwave.co
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Does this picture fill you with a warm feeling?

Coca Cola is currently the most popular drink in the world.

What about this picture?

When you see or hear something you recognize, it releases the love molecule oxytocin. But when you are confronted with something unfamiliar, the brains danger detector (the amygdala) activates, and releases the stress hormone cortisol.

This may explain the feelings

for this animal who probably wants to eat me

and this creature who was eyeing me up for some kibble

This mechanic has been hardwired into us for millions of years, and we associate a certain blend of familiarity with each thing in order to map out our reality. It's so we feel safe in our surroundings and dissolve inhibitions. But wait - we're not cavemen anymore. Realizing this makes me want to question everything. Every taboo, stigma, belief and label.

When you already have a strong positive or negative familiarity with something, that polarity only gets further fed when you are exposed to it more, making it harder to switch your mind about it. Being willing to explore fears of the unknown and becoming familiar can open up many doors.

The experience of doing something is often much more effective at changing our minds than logical rhetoric (something called the ‘familiarity principle’ in psychology). The impact of experience is another reason why research will not be the end-all, be-all in changing how our culture perceives psychedelic use, which I believe to be one of the most effective perspective-shifting tools out there. I argue that microdosing will be the key to mainstreaming psychedelics.

Tim Ferris podcast with Dr James Fadiman on The Psychedelic Explorer's Guide - Risks, Micro-Dosing, Ibogaine, and More.

 

I was meditating in a grassland with shrooms, and my mind kept persistently pushing me to extract value out of aesthetic patterns and forming shapes in an effort to seek existential balance in combination with whichever insights i had acquired in the past days. It felt a bit icky, and I soon realized that I was viewing these patterns with unease because of the premeditated subconscious labels I had attached to the symbolic appearance of them. My mind formed a smiley face. Tick. My mind formed a confused face. Cross. These labels had to go. It was obscuring everything.

After some minutes I noticed that I had my lense focused largely on aesthetics. It was making me weary and tiresome of my surroundings. So with this realization I managed to shift my focus to the functionality of the patterns I was visualizing, thinking and so on. It was just like a camera changing focus. I entered what seemed like a breezy meadow of consistent and elegant geometric patterns. I began thinking much more coherently without the stream of data from the aesthetical side of things. These aspects are beautiful, but they are not the only thing. Gotta look at the whole package.

Saying things put an imprint on my mind. Getting angry on twitter sent shockwaves through the reverberations of my mind. I couldn't see things clearly with this filter on my perception. The ignorance of the angry optician at specsavers triggered a chain reaction in me and stripped away all my layers of unnecessary bullshit. My focus turned into a lazer beam. Anger was coursing through me. I felt like a god. In the end I internalized the anger and channeled it in understanding the situation, as the man seemed a bit stressed and I intuitively felt it to be futile to reason with an old generations outdated beliefs and methodologies.

Streaming seemed to really confuse my psyche. Having all these signals from so many people, while having my focus on the thrill of it, lead to having a huge influx of information to process soon after dissolving the socially conditioned values that I adopted whilst doing so, and gradually transcending towards my true nature. So now what it comes down to is finding out what makes me tic. Then understanding it. Then with my fundamental fears of the unknown established, I can use my mind as the pattern spotting terminator I was born to be.

So then I come to cryptocurrency. With the rise of Bitcoin it has done quite a bit more than just being a drop in the ocean. Ethereum has risen and is predicted to keep going up and up, according to experts. But what really seems intriguing to me is Golem coin and the software that will soon accompany it.

This sparked the idea of a cryptocurrency that also has fortune-cookie-like messages that gives users empowering feedback about what they really are. Perhaps it may require padding, with the main focus relating to their core value, but with their true compass gently being revealed. This could be a solid bridge from one ideology to another. If you look at cultures such as Thailand and India, one of the main beliefs denoted to a religion called Buddhism, is the notion of there not being a self. That you are an ever changing entity capable of everything. The culture there is profoundly different, and that is probably a key reason why. It is slowly becoming more westernized, though. Cultures such as London are good at making their ideology seem very attractive. Their sense of certainty is kept well topped up. Local people in these eastern countries just seem less greedy, amongst other things. That's what I'm saying. We need technologies that unify everyone.

Our constant need for a feed in the information age requires a fluidly intertwined stream of well calibrated and deduced bite size pockets of understandings relating to what we really are. With the drive to be organized within reality, whilst always seeking to solve problems and overcoming bumps along the road.

Most people love money! That's something we can agree on with outstanding confidence! Perhaps cryptographic technology combined with insights about our true nature can gently leave subconscious imprints on our minds, transforming the social structures, and slowly, without resistance, turning every nook and cranny of the world (including the mind of every inhabitant) into a lush paradise. Always striving for greatness as a unified species, and never trading curiosity for complacency.

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Today I figured out the core reason why there is often a communication barrier in a vast amount of social situations. I realized that this is because people subconsciously and consciously block out information and stimuli from people and the environment in order to keep their identity and sense of self intact; To keep the story that they believe alive. You could also call this their shield. Their ego. This seems to be a major ingredient that divides communities and creates conflict. Believing in a collection of stories with little motivation to search for a logical answer leads to complacency and the attachment of an image that you perceive as yourself. There is no self. You are an ever changing entity. I believe this is the main reason why the world is not anywhere near as connected as it can be.

Society and culture has conditioned us to value empty concepts above learning.

Here is my mantra:

Value learning above everything
Value learning above everything
Value learning above everything
Value learning above everything
Value learning above everything
Value learning above everything
Value learning above everything
Value learning above everything
Value learning above everything
Value learning above everything
Value learning above everything
Value learning above everything

Each action and the tone in which it is executed creates waves that encourage a certain type of behaviour. It feeds into and alters the ocean that is the global consciousness.

Do your actions encourage and iterate a present mindset or one denoted to the past and/or future?

You can learn a lot about an environment and the people in it by how your resonance and coping strategies fluctuate depending on where you are and who you are around. The stories that you believe associated with your surroundings and yourself determine your vibrational state. Either way, these mechanisms influence how open you may be to learning new things.

Whilst under the effects of hallucinogens, it is much easier to notice the reality you are creating and encouraging. Every action and the style in which you do it creates intricate iterations and gentle folds into your reality. This creates the direction in which you build momentum. I often find that people who dance or have some kind of abstract creative outlet come across much more flexible and open to new ideas. I also see this in commercials and music videos - It's so enticing. In some ways, the kaleidoscope of their mind is bursting.

Hallucinogens have influenced many scientific discoveries and breakthroughs. And lots of technology.

Much of the technologies and creations that you have the delight of experiencing today come from the worlds creative headquarters: Silicon Valley, California. According to Tim Ferris, every billionaire he knows, almost without exception, uses hallucinogens on a regular basis; this is to have an edge over their competition. Microdosing (as well as larger dosing) has been utilized for decades there, but it is only recently that it has risen again to be known more as a creative thinking tool rather than simply a recreational drug. Notably, Steve Jobs (co founder of Apple) described LSD as being one of the most important things in his life. This may explain the "Zen" style of technology that he created, thus ushering in enormous ripples of innovation within the world.

Hallucinogens are such an ineffably powerful tool due to many reasons, but one of the most important lies within the feature of disrupting the default mode network. In our lives, it is very easy to get caught up in past and future thinking, and if this habit is kept up for a prolonged period of time it can almost feel like we are sinking into quick sand. With the ability to dissolve attachments by infusing meditation with this tool, combined with the simple act of relaxing and letting go, we tap into the core fabric of the universe and become super intelligent with boundless pattern recognition and precise emotional acuity.

This also incurs a ripple effect throughout your feedback loop within your brain as the iterations you made whilst under the effect of the hallucinogen carries on, as you retain the knowledge you acquired while in that state. It seems hard to ignore the perspective witnessed while under these effects and further motivates the user to seek global balance if exposed to sufficient insights.

Actual Scientific research on the safety and validity of hallucinogenic substances is limited, largely due to it being illegal. One good aspect to know is that psilocybin is 100x less neurotoxic than coffee. Additionally, from an anecdotal point of view, it is perceived with high positive regard, and from my experience I can say that it seems highly safe if the set and setting is carefully considered. I would recommend to be in Nature with minimal disturbances. Nature & Hallucinogens promote the deactivation of your ego and identity, and stimulates creativity. Combining this with mediation, logical insights and reflection results in the recipe for potentially massive ripples of positive change.

It is possible to fall off track though. I've also had experiences on hallucinogens where I have given up on learning. On exotic occasions I have gravitated towards reading about conspiracy theories of Donald Trump owning a time machine, and then proceeded to experience what seemed like me shooting up in a rocket to space. With the subtle abrasive tones of grains of sand and tiny rocks hitting my vehicle, sounding and feeling so realistic that you would think it's real. That rabbit hole came to an abrupt ending though.

Admittedly, I initially used hallucinogens as a recreational drug when I was in love. Because I had so many layers and felt secure around my friend, my identity stayed intact and I barely scraped the surface. Moreover, it was not until I experienced "identity/ego death" on a cold winters night, in a place where I felt a little bit unsafe, that I began to notice the infinite possibilities of life and humanity as a whole.

I listened to this in nature, with some psilocybin mushrooms. The impression at the time of the audio ending was of a beautiful yet heart breaking roller coaster. When it came to the part about waves and vibrations, my perception burst into a colorful kaleidoscope of geometric patterns. A sense of liberation filled me. I felt like a flower blooming. I felt a deeper connection to everything and I was filled with an urge to visit less developed places in the world.

I think that the current situation with the world is of an ocean of consciousness, divided into nations. Divided. Divided. Then, these reality's seem to be reinforced with repetition, beliefs and control. Actions and thoughts. Stories about places and people that we believe. I feel that it comes down to trying to control the frame. At the foundation we are waves and vibrations, an ever changing entity. What is there to control? Doing so is futile. I experience fluidity and a certain type of peaceful resonance from many people in Africa, and perhaps people that live in the countryside. Often people with horses that spend most of their time in nature.

Nature is balance. I think that we create our reality with our thoughts and actions. All of the things that we believe or are actively trying to control spill out towards every tiny expression in our lives. Our handwriting. Our relationship with food. By understanding our fears and allowing every premeditation and need for control to fade away we experience an exquisite state of flow that ushers other people in like a magnet.

I get the feeling with the culture that I live in, despite it slowly becoming fragmented with people's ability to access answers on the internet, that the iterations and hurdles in which people swerve in and out of to create balance in their perceived reality are so well guarded that it requires a specific angle for each person. I believe that insights, such as from this video, are a vital ingredient. The question is to what extent are people open to riding new waves? Perhaps the answer to that is Meditation, Nature, Psychedelics, Reflection, Mindfulness.

 

Hand writing says a lot about people. Just like any other action, the way you do it constitutes the reverberations in your feedback loop, deciphering which goggles you'll be wearing at that moment. I remember experiencing the deepest inner workings of my mind when I accidentally stumbled upon "ego death". But today, I was in a rush for some reason. I remembered the hand writing of a friend. He had really fluid writing. So I tried this, while I was writing labels. Instead of a rushed, rigid tone I switched to a more elegant, suggestive flair. My flow positively flipped in an instant.

This is good to know, because I realised after listening to a guy called Rsdtyler that it is easily possible to become addicted to a certain vibrational state and subconsciously resist changes. Actively controlling and losing your flow. I think this is the result of believing stories in order to transform the environment that seemingly benefits you into a pleasant and optimal one. A deceptively consistent one. Even though it can be genuinely good just by being realistic. It felt like playing tetris with my thoughts and creating an identity in order to achieve complacency.

I came to this realisation after taking a moderate dose of 4-AcO-DMT. This is the "smart" version of magic mushrooms, mixed into convenient chocolate hearts. I really do not like the taste of actual mushrooms. Importantly I took this in nature to stimulate ego dissolution. There are not many guided meditations I will listen to, however this hypnosis is one that I regularly do listen to. Anything that will dissolve my ego and remove my goggles. I always find that I end up embodying and absorbing the vibe of whoevers guided meditation I listen to (especially whilst on psychedelics) so I'm very particular with what I am willing to expose myself to.

I had not meditated or taken any downtime in over a week and my mind was foggy. So I went into this with the general idea of "don't resist anything and just go with it", and that hypnosis happened to be a excellent way to break through the barriers and not resist. Whichever stories and ideas I happened to believe in the last week were pleasantly thrown away. On another note, I remembered mentioning to someone that DMT is like your past and future collapsing on your present, and then entering a video game with ineffable graphics and audio. I then applied this to the trip and viewed everything as a video game. I really did feel like a snake shedding skin. I felt as light as a feather. Afterwards, I was watching this fly on a flower which had a fluffy butt. Him and all the other bugs around me were reminding me of my cat. Everything felt so familiar and fresh.

Everything you absorb on a daily basis forms the goggles you wear and the things you create. People, music, movies. This will eventually manifest itself physically into your reality if you keep at it. Be careful which vibrations you embrace and expose yourself to. Some people have very convincing stories! Be mindful!

These tools infused with insight, reflection & mindfulness can potentially revolutionise the world and the way people think. Despite this being a rather soft hallucinogen compared to DMT, with DMT it happens so fast that holding onto any premeditated template of how something is has to be left behind, putting you in an infinitely fluid state and acquiring an excellent perspective.

More about:
Feedback loops and vibrations: https://youtu.be/nQKMNI5X148
Microdosing psychedelics: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bIEkqH70C-M
Help fund the first ever LSD study for cognitive function: http://bit.ly/2sq0SVs

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You know me. The prick who calls out fake streamers for the hell of it. I just wanna say though, that i understand those people more now. I understand that the fakeness is just a fear sandwich, and I can smell it and taste it. Did this raise your stress levels?

The thing is, people connect with authenticity. What I've learnt from hallucinogens is that coping mechanisms are in place for a reason. They are barriers that numb our fear of the unknown. Mechanisms that have gently folded into our reality over a period of time. Quietly altering our melody of life.

Even being selfish is a coping mechanism, as bleak as that may sound. I guess it is a way to avoid intimacy and honesty. You know, the kind of people that worship The Wolf of Wall Street. They're charming, but there's no real substance as they are too busy thinking about their next hustle.

I bring to you as no surprise, that we can unravel these glitchy mazes firmly woven into our subconscious known as coping mechanisms. For they were a construction in the first place, and sometimes they really dampen our true nature. These mechanisms filter out the environment and we become more and more insensitive to injustices in our environment as time goes on. Couple that with some negative beliefs to keep these mechanisms afloat, and there you have the perfect ingredients to become a well behaved drone.

To deconstruct these illusions: at the very least It requires understanding, consideration and assertiveness. Therapy and/or hallucinogens is a short cut. Dive into all fears and see what's lurking down there. Re-own everything and let go of all resistance.

 

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As a kid I never felt stuck. I rarely felt barriers such as fear, because I always followed my intuition. When I was 7, I even sawed through a wardrobe with a butter knife to get my confiscated Nintendo 64 back. However, as I got older and more pieces of the game we call life came into play, the trust i had in my gut feeling began to fade away. When I started creating youtube videos, whilst really pouring in my heart and soul, it felt amazing. I had everything I wanted on lock down - money, security, friends. No one telling me what to do. When growing up, I realized that my sweet spot was in gaming. It was fun, and I loved the feeling that I was better than everyone. It made me popular, and I had something that people couldn't buy with money. I felt like a king. But as time went on I became more emotionally involved in youtube and streaming. I started to pour trust into the opinions of others as my well being seemed to rely on them liking my stuff. A sensation of fear began to linger, creeping up on me, but at the same time I enjoyed all the things I could do from the cheddar I made. That gamble was a tricky one. Things started to become grey, colors washed away. Little did I know that people vibed way more with the real me whom didn't lose sleep over the opinions of sheep.

I get off on being around people where everything flows with ease, and those friends were influential because I felt that I could be even more myself around them. Those people became extremely important to me. We truly connected. They would become my refuge. Not too long ago, every time I felt ready to change something in my life, I would first jump to reignite old friendships, or potential partners. It was simply easier to go back to old relationships than building new ones. I learnt that I did this in order to create an environment where I felt a deep level of trust and love so that I could feel comfortable enough to be myself, and therefore fully express and create. In all honesty though, this should come from me. Because then it'll cascade.

Understanding each other and how things work helps us overcome obstacles more easily. This allows us to accept and embrace the subtle quirks in people and new concepts. Just like how we appreciate the differences in cats and dogs. I resonate the most with people who emit a vibe of understanding, consideration and respect, but at the same time showing a flexible character and not taking dumb things too serious.

Our mind is the control center. Emotions underpin everything so it's vital to not kick them to the curb. Doing so dampens our mind. They are the energy in motion. They are a message. Some people are even born with greater emotional skills. It's a survival thing. To alert us of danger. To solve problems. Luckily though, you can train emotional awareness like a muscle. Such as observing how things around you effect your vibe, without judging or labeling. And then taking appropriate action. Everyone can develop any ability, and take on any form. It is just the notion of believing that you cannot which enables your mind to dig its heels.


Everything is connected. Love ripples. So does fear. All through vibrations. Some people are more in tune with this than others. Much like a Gazelle alerting the herd that a predator is close by. The cues in the environment that cause us to feel these spiky sensations are there to be explored, as it is after we     dispel     all     fear     that we then further unlock our vast potential and spread it onto others. When WE feel friction from our surroundings, or when playing a game that requires teamwork, that is the cue for us to embrace all perspectives and understand instead of scuttling away.

Basically, "don't be a little bitch" - Mak 2017 😍

for those interested: http://singularitygroup.net/index