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I had a weird DMT experience the other day. I had one small hit and the visual hallucinations were only half there, not in total vibrancy.

So I felt just about every sensation all at once - it was quite intense and there was also a fair bit of anxiety. It was a bit like a filter had been taken off me.

With all my previous experience with meditation and psychedelics, I tried the usual notion of letting go but this time i added in the thought "experience every sensation as a learning opportunity". After I eased into this notion, out of nowhere a seemingly benevolent worm appeared and started munching through the geometric patterns I was seeing and turning them into glistening diamonds. It felt like i was at a buffet and even if it was a bit scary I didn't mind because i was basically collecting coins in mario - i was leveling up and that is what made me comfortable enough to gravitate towards the desire to embrace everything and try to understand it. If the end game of DMT is your consciousness temporarily leaving your body, then it must be the best tool available to me for just about everything. I haven't broken through to "hyperspace" yet though.

To be honest I think any anxieties i had in the past were from not understanding my environment or the world enough, coupled with a weed habit that consisted of no breaks ever (wake and bake). But I don't want to just stuff any fear of the unknown down and plaster it up with obstructions. That just prolongs the inevitable.

When you are not familiar with something it actually produces stress and fear hormones. When you are familiar it releases love hormones. (see familiarity principle). This means we can get most if not all of our comfort from understanding reality and rely less on external things. Oh i know it can be daunting at first, it's like catching up on patch notes in WoW. Also, in a recent study that I heard on Jesse Lawlers 'SmartDrugSmarts' podcast, a single dose of cortisol (which triggers stress) disrupted memory and learning in the brains and had a substantial effect on the plasticity of the sensory areas of the brain. They suspect that the increase in cortisol suppresses the longterm potentiation of the neurons that are affected. So understanding these things and having an openness to being wrong or incomplete seems to be incredibly important for overcoming resistance.

I read an article about climate change which gave me a well rounded view of a big problem. Some people say it's grim, but It made me actually feel more empowered as my richer understanding about it means that nay-sayers can't as easily displace the route i wish to take. The comment about the film "Mad Max" perhaps being a displacement for our climate anxieties especially resonated with me.

I also saw a video. It was of a man talking about many people having an "inner trump" and that we need to dismantle our ego to some extent to bring about lasting positive change, because out of ego we want to be top dog, which maybe stimulates our drive to acquire superficial stuff, instead of leaning more towards an inclusive consciousness and helping with the worlds #1 problem of cow farts changing the climate.

Direct experience is the most powerful tool in the world

Visiting new places

Getting a change of scenery

Can enhance your mind more than anything

But not everyone can afford this

Which is why I believe psychedelics are the best tools in shifting perspective

In a very positive way

Especially when it comes to microdosing


It's also important to have reliable sources of knowledge

to help integrate these mystical experiences

Remember that everything

Such as music

is an expression of consciousness

So no need to demonize anything

Simply seek to understand

Because doing so is liberating

Especially when you realize

that everything is connected

Many notions we learned as a kid were not entirely true

Which is why we must question things that do not add up

Question things that make us tic

And truly make sense of it

By passing obstacles and elevating thought patterns

with this new view and knowledge

we can transcend our differences

and graduate from drone status

to unlock our full potential

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I was meditating in a grassland with shrooms, and my mind kept persistently pushing me to extract value out of aesthetic patterns and forming shapes in an effort to seek existential balance in combination with whichever insights i had acquired in the past days. It felt a bit icky, and I soon realized that I was viewing these patterns with unease because of the premeditated subconscious labels I had attached to the symbolic appearance of them. My mind formed a smiley face. Tick. My mind formed a confused face. Cross. These labels had to go. It was obscuring everything.

After some minutes I noticed that I had my lense focused largely on aesthetics. It was making me weary and tiresome of my surroundings. So with this realization I managed to shift my focus to the functionality of the patterns I was visualizing, thinking and so on. It was just like a camera changing focus. I entered what seemed like a breezy meadow of consistent and elegant geometric patterns. I began thinking much more coherently without the stream of data from the aesthetical side of things. These aspects are beautiful, but they are not the only thing. Gotta look at the whole package.

Saying things put an imprint on my mind. Getting angry on twitter sent shockwaves through the reverberations of my mind. I couldn't see things clearly with this filter on my perception. The ignorance of the angry optician at specsavers triggered a chain reaction in me and stripped away all my layers of unnecessary bullshit. My focus turned into a lazer beam. Anger was coursing through me. I felt like a god. In the end I internalized the anger and channeled it in understanding the situation, as the man seemed a bit stressed and I intuitively felt it to be futile to reason with an old generations outdated beliefs and methodologies.

Streaming seemed to really confuse my psyche. Having all these signals from so many people, while having my focus on the thrill of it, lead to having a huge influx of information to process soon after dissolving the socially conditioned values that I adopted whilst doing so, and gradually transcending towards my true nature. So now what it comes down to is finding out what makes me tic. Then understanding it. Then with my fundamental fears of the unknown established, I can use my mind as the pattern spotting terminator I was born to be.

So then I come to cryptocurrency. With the rise of Bitcoin it has done quite a bit more than just being a drop in the ocean. Ethereum has risen and is predicted to keep going up and up, according to experts. But what really seems intriguing to me is Golem coin and the software that will soon accompany it.

This sparked the idea of a cryptocurrency that also has fortune-cookie-like messages that gives users empowering feedback about what they really are. Perhaps it may require padding, with the main focus relating to their core value, but with their true compass gently being revealed. This could be a solid bridge from one ideology to another. If you look at cultures such as Thailand and India, one of the main beliefs denoted to a religion called Buddhism, is the notion of there not being a self. That you are an ever changing entity capable of everything. The culture there is profoundly different, and that is probably a key reason why. It is slowly becoming more westernized, though. Cultures such as London are good at making their ideology seem very attractive. Their sense of certainty is kept well topped up. Local people in these eastern countries just seem less greedy, amongst other things. That's what I'm saying. We need technologies that unify everyone.

Our constant need for a feed in the information age requires a fluidly intertwined stream of well calibrated and deduced bite size pockets of understandings relating to what we really are. With the drive to be organized within reality, whilst always seeking to solve problems and overcoming bumps along the road.

Most people love money! That's something we can agree on with outstanding confidence! Perhaps cryptographic technology combined with insights about our true nature can gently leave subconscious imprints on our minds, transforming the social structures, and slowly, without resistance, turning every nook and cranny of the world (including the mind of every inhabitant) into a lush paradise. Always striving for greatness as a unified species, and never trading curiosity for complacency.

I listened to this in nature, with some psilocybin mushrooms. The impression at the time of the audio ending was of a beautiful yet heart breaking roller coaster. When it came to the part about waves and vibrations, my perception burst into a colorful kaleidoscope of geometric patterns. A sense of liberation filled me. I felt like a flower blooming. I felt a deeper connection to everything and I was filled with an urge to visit less developed places in the world.

I think that the current situation with the world is of an ocean of consciousness, divided into nations. Divided. Divided. Then, these reality's seem to be reinforced with repetition, beliefs and control. Actions and thoughts. Stories about places and people that we believe. I feel that it comes down to trying to control the frame. At the foundation we are waves and vibrations, an ever changing entity. What is there to control? Doing so is futile. I experience fluidity and a certain type of peaceful resonance from many people in Africa, and perhaps people that live in the countryside. Often people with horses that spend most of their time in nature.

Nature is balance. I think that we create our reality with our thoughts and actions. All of the things that we believe or are actively trying to control spill out towards every tiny expression in our lives. Our handwriting. Our relationship with food. By understanding our fears and allowing every premeditation and need for control to fade away we experience an exquisite state of flow that ushers other people in like a magnet.

I get the feeling with the culture that I live in, despite it slowly becoming fragmented with people's ability to access answers on the internet, that the iterations and hurdles in which people swerve in and out of to create balance in their perceived reality are so well guarded that it requires a specific angle for each person. I believe that insights, such as from this video, are a vital ingredient. The question is to what extent are people open to riding new waves? Perhaps the answer to that is Meditation, Nature, Psychedelics, Reflection, Mindfulness.